Journal
Soraya’s journal
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Nothing happened again
week 65settled energy 1
Late, and writing anyway. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Steady, supply permitting. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have…
Two lines a day
week 52organised energy 42 replies
Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the…
Where the pen lives
week 51organised energy 22 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Two…
An unremarkable week
week 50flat energy 53 replies
Late, and writing anyway. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to…
Two flights of stairs
week 49quietly delighted energy 21 reply
Short one tonight. Carried both bags up in one go. Small thing. Wrote it down. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I…
A1c down
week 48pleased energy 53 replies
Short one tonight. Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never once heard applied to me. Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The difference in a fortnight…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 46held energy 34 replies
Short one tonight. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. She had a bad week and I had a…
Iron and B12
week 45pleased energy 11 reply
Short one tonight. Bloods back. Unremarkable, she said, which is a word I had never once heard applied to me. Improved. Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The difference in a…
Protein first
week 45steady energy 53 replies
A quiet week. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I…
Both bags, one go
week 43quietly delighted energy 11 reply
Late, and writing anyway. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Walked into town and back, which I stopped doing years ago without ever deciding to…
Quiet
week 42steady energy 13 replies
A quiet week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No news.…
No news
week 41steady energy 21 reply
A quiet week. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to report. Writing…
Fewer, heavier
week 40tired but good energy 42 replies
Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week…
I nearly did not write
week 38fine energy 51 reply
A quiet week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No news.…
Steady
week 37steady energy 41 reply
No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Nothing to report. Writing it down…
Back without making it up
week 36tired but good energy 52 replies
Two sessions this week, both short, both done. Ren keeps saying that two a week for two years beats a perfect programme abandoned in March, and he is annoyingly right. Kept…
A plain question
week 34steady energy 33 replies
Short one tonight. Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. I have…
Awake at four
week 33rested energy 14 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off.…
Dreams
week 32rested energy 34 replies
A quiet week. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten years of that mask. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other…
Nothing to report
week 30fine energy 21 reply
Short one tonight. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. No…