Journal
Lucas’s journal
Late to everything including this. Still here.
A different shape
week 37rested energy 34 replies
Well then. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in…
Both bags, one go
week 35quietly delighted energy 11 reply
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Slept flat. Whole…
Walking
week 34tired but good energy 22 replies
Right. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for…
The list on the fridge
week 33steady energy 43 replies
Well then. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Greek yoghurt, eggs,…
Circle tonight
week 31warm energy 14 replies
Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which…
The limits of yoghurt
week 30steady energy 13 replies
Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice…
A wedding
week 28warm energy 31 reply
Well then. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of…
Where the pen lives
week 26organised energy 12 replies
Right. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. New sharps bin, and a plan for what…
Anchored to the shifts
week 25organised energy 22 replies
New sharps bin, and a plan for what happens to it when I move in September. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I…
Come back in a year
week 23relieved energy 32 replies
A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. Everything stable. She said come back in a year. I have never had a…
Nothing to report
week 21fine energy 43 replies
I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An unremarkable week. Ate,…
A1c down
week 20pleased energy 43 replies
A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. Everything stable. She said come back in a year. I have never had a…
Iron and B12
week 20relieved energy 12 replies
Right. A1c down. I looked at the number for a long time and then rang my mother, which surprised us both. A1c down and his cardiologist unbent slightly. Everything stable.…
Protein first
week 18steady energy 33 replies
Right. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. I have found five things I can get down when…
Slept through
week 17rested energy 5
Right. Waking at four again. Not anxious, just awake, lying there listening to the boiler. Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the…
A new bin and a plan
week 15organised energy 42 replies
Well then. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Small logistics…
Steady
week 14flat energy 43 replies
Well then. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it.…
The question I had been avoiding
week 12heard energy 12 replies
Well then. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. She reduced one of my other…
I nearly did not write
week 10flat energy 41 reply
Right. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An unremarkable week.…
Where the pen lives
week 9organised energy 12 replies
Right. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. New sharps bin, and a plan for what…