Journal
Lucas’s journal
Late to everything including this. Still here.
Reduced
week 76flat energy 52 replies
Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Steady, still late for everything else. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I…
Nothing to report
week 66steady energy 31 reply
Well then. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An unremarkable…
Steady
week 64flat energy 43 replies
Well then. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it.…
My mother cooks
week 62warm energy 21 reply
Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who…
I nearly did not write
week 61fine energy 33 replies
Well then. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An unremarkable…
No news
week 59steady energy 53 replies
Right. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then…
Walking
week 57tired but good energy 32 replies
Right. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for…
Starters as a main
week 55warm energy 31 reply
Right. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people…
Flat, again
week 55frayed energy 53 replies
Right. Nothing. Eleven weeks of nothing. I know intellectually that nothing is not a failure, and I am finding that intellectual knowledge worth approximately nothing this…
Fewer, heavier
week 54tired but good energy 22 replies
Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were…
Both bags, one go
week 52pleased energy 41 reply
Well then. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not…
Somebody new
week 50warm energy 34 replies
Well then. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. The facilitator stopped the room…
Quiet
week 49flat energy 23 replies
Well then. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. An unremarkable…
She noticed first
week 47held energy 24 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday…
She stopped the room
week 46warm energy 2
Right. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I…
An hour on the floor
week 44grateful energy 21 reply
Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Slept flat. Whole…
An unremarkable week
week 42flat energy 11 reply
Right. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 41tired but good energy 52 replies
Well then. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking.…
Two flights of stairs
week 39quietly delighted energy 13 replies
Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths,…
Flat, whole night
week 38pleased energy 11 reply
Well then. Slept flat. Whole night. Flat. Climbed the stairs at work rather than waiting for a lift. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Full shift…