Journal
Hattie’s journal
Chronic fatigue plus this. Careful pacing.
Nothing happened again
week 87flat energy 3
Late, and writing anyway. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Steady. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have…
Two flights of stairs
week 60grateful energy 3
Late, and writing anyway. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Walked to the Quay and back…
I nearly did not write
week 55flat energy 13 replies
Short one tonight. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have…
An unremarkable week
week 53fine energy 23 replies
Late, and writing anyway. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. I nearly did…
I nearly did not write
week 52steady energy 53 replies
A quiet week. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Steady. That is…
My mother cooks
week 50awkward energy 51 reply
Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say thank you,…
An unremarkable week
week 49steady energy 13 replies
Short one tonight. Steady. That is the whole entry. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false…
An hour on the floor
week 48grateful energy 31 reply
A quiet week. Up the stairs at work twice without stopping at the landing. I stood at the top for a second like an idiot. Nobody saw. It counted. Walked into town and back,…
Anchored to the shifts
week 46organised energy 52 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months.…
Starters as a main
week 45awkward energy 11 reply
A quiet week. Starters as a main course, permanently. No explanation offered, none requested. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say…
The question I had been avoiding
week 44frustrated energy 4
Late, and writing anyway. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Took the diary in.…
Awake at four
week 42rested energy 44 replies
Late, and writing anyway. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Repeat study came back and the apnoea…
A new bin and a plan
week 41organised energy 52 replies
Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. Anchored injection day to my shift pattern…
Where the pen lives
week 40organised energy 32 replies
Anchored injection day to my shift pattern rather than to the calendar, which solved a problem I had been feeling guilty about for four months. Tested three cool bags against…
Somebody new
week 38warm energy 34 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Went for the…
She noticed first
week 37held energy 54 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines…
Anchored to the shifts
week 37pleased energy 23 replies
Late, and writing anyway. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer this weekend because I am that person. Results written up for the travel circle. Batch cooking on good…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 36tired but good energy 4
Late, and writing anyway. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a…
She read the diary
week 34brisk energy 22 replies
Short one tonight. Took the diary in. She read it properly, which I had not expected, and changed the plan because of it. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven…
I nearly did not write
week 33fine energy 33 replies
A quiet week. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. An…