Journal
Moray’s journal
Whisky country. Alcohol circle regular.
Protein first
week 32steady energy 43 replies
Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have…
Two lengths, badly
week 31pleased energy 21 reply
Well then. Sat on the floor and played for an hour, and then got up. That was the entire reason I started, and I have now done it. Carried both bags up in one go. Small…
She stopped the room
week 30warm energy 34 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Went for the practical answers and stayed…
An unremarkable week
week 28flat energy 53 replies
Well then. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. Quiet. Injection…
Paired
week 27held energy 4
Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next…
What is your secret
week 26awkward energy 21 reply
Well then. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of…
Stayed for the company
week 25warm energy 24 replies
Well then. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Somebody new…
Walking
week 23tired but good energy 32 replies
Eight minutes and a chair. That is the whole programme. Tuesday and Friday. I have done it for eleven weeks. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just…
Sunday lunch
week 22loved energy 41 reply
Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who…
Sunday night, four lines
week 21held energy 14 replies
Well then. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each,…
My mother cooks
week 20loved energy 31 reply
Right. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people…
Two flights of stairs
week 19grateful energy 21 reply
Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning. Walked into town and back, which…
Nothing to report
week 18fine energy 53 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of…
No mask
week 17tired energy 24 replies
The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is much reduced. Ten…
Nine minutes
week 15frustrated energy 12 replies
Well then. Asked the question I had been avoiding for eleven years. She answered it in about ninety seconds and was completely unbothered. A locum who had clearly read…
It stopped appealing
week 15thoughtful energy 43 replies
The pub is still the pub. I had worried about that more than anything. Whisky stopped appealing entirely, in whisky country. It simply stopped appealing. I miss the ritual…
The list on the fridge
week 14steady energy 43 replies
Right. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 13held energy 44 replies
Right. Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. My buddy noticed something in my journal before I did and asked me a very gentle question about it.…
Steady
week 11flat energy 33 replies
Well then. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. I nearly did…
Starters as a main
week 10awkward energy 21 reply
Well then. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of…