Journal
Rin’s journal
Journalling daily since week one.
Nothing happened again
week 92content energy 32 replies
Quickly, before bed. Wednesdays are just Wednesdays now. Steady. Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have…
Weather, not a verdict
week 59low energy 13 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Three months of no change and my blood pressure has come down anyway. Two things can be true at once and I keep having to relearn that. Flat,…
A new bin and a plan
week 54organised energy 1
Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Tested three cool bags against a thermometer…
Steady
week 52steady energy 21 reply
Quickly, before bed. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory…
Awake at four
week 51foggy energy 44 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything…
Quiet
week 50flat energy 53 replies
Quickly, before bed. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing.…
Sunday lunch
week 49warm energy 51 reply
Quickly, before bed. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a…
My mother cooks
week 48warm energy 51 reply
Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who…
The list on the fridge
week 47steady energy 43 replies
I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own. Got something with protein in…
The limits of yoghurt
week 45steady energy 13 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Got something with protein in before nine this morning, which meant the rest of the day did not fall apart at four. Protein first, everything…
She stopped the room
week 44warm energy 44 replies
Quickly, before bed. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and about eleven minutes of actual information. The rest was the point. The facilitator stopped the room when four…
Starters as a main
week 43awkward energy 11 reply
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not…
Dreams
week 41rested energy 44 replies
Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it. Waking at…
Protein first
week 40steady energy 13 replies
Quickly, before bed. Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Spread it across the day instead…
Nine minutes
week 39frustrated energy 42 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Nine minutes. I took three written questions and got three answers, which is the best return I have ever had from an appointment. Took the diary…
Stayed for the company
week 38warm energy 24 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. Circle tonight. Eight of us, an hour, and…
Sunday night, four lines
week 37held energy 3
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines each, and it has quietly become the most reliable thing in my week. My buddy noticed…
A wedding
week 36loved energy 31 reply
Quickly, before bed. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I want to say to that. A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a…
The list on the fridge
week 35steady energy 23 replies
Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier. Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both.…
Two flights of stairs
week 33grateful energy 31 reply
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Tied my own laces standing up. I am aware of how that sounds and I do not care. Swam. First time since school. Two lengths, badly, grinning.…