Journal
Sadie’s journal
Two jobs, one bike, no car.
Quiet
week 47fine energy 11 reply
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Steady. That is the…
My mother cooks
week 45warm energy 21 reply
Quickly, before bed. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely.…
Three cool bags and a thermometer
week 43organised energy 12 replies
Quickly, before bed. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing. That is the entire system and it has twice changed a clinical decision. Small logistics win:…
No news
week 41fine energy 53 replies
Steady. That is the whole entry. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring…
Starters as a main
week 39loved energy 31 reply
Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely. Still working out what I…
A wedding
week 37warm energy 21 reply
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze…
From the bottom
week 35nervous energy 12 replies
The shame about the gap was worse than any side effect I have had. Six people in circle said "yes, me, twice", and it went. Restarted when a shift pattern changed. Starting…
The arithmetic
week 33clear-eyed energy 33 replies
Quickly, before bed. What this has displaced in the budget: the car being fixed, and a holiday. I have decided that is the right trade for now and I reserve the right to…
The overdue conversation
week 31pinched energy 34 replies
What this has displaced in the budget: the car being fixed, and a holiday. I have decided that is the right trade for now and I reserve the right to change my mind. A month…
Stayed for the company
week 31warm energy 14 replies
Quickly, before bed. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour.…
The limits of yoghurt
week 29steady energy 23 replies
Was undereating without realising. The nurse asked a plain question about what I had actually eaten in the last two days and I heard my own answer. I have found five things I…
The list on the fridge
week 26steady energy 33 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. I have found five things I can get down when nothing appeals and I have written them on the fridge. That list is the most useful thing I own.…
What is your secret
week 25loved energy 41 reply
Quickly, before bed. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Somebody asked what my secret was and I froze completely.…
I nearly did not write
week 23steady energy 41 reply
Quickly, before bed. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about how much I have got out of other people's boring weeks. No news.…
Where the pen lives
week 20organised energy 22 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. Small logistics win: worked out where the pen actually lives in a fridge shared with four other people and a toddler's yoghurts. Two lines a day…
She noticed first
week 18held energy 54 replies
She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or five lines…
Awake at four
week 16tired energy 4
Quickly, before bed. The sleep has changed shape rather than improved. Different, not better, and I cannot yet tell whether I mind. Repeat study came back and the apnoea is…
A rough few days
week 15sore energy 53 replies
Headache for three days running. It turned out I had barely drunk anything since Tuesday. Water, then a slow improvement, then feeling faintly stupid. A hard month on a bike…
Steady
week 14flat energy 33 replies
Ten minutes then I am asleep. No news. The dog is well, the weather has been foul, and I have taken my medication on the correct day for the eleventh week running. Quiet.…
Nothing to report
week 12flat energy 23 replies
Quickly, before bed. Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This…