Journal
Tarn’s journal
Lake District. Walking myself back to strength.
Off the floor
week 30quietly delighted energy 44 replies
Full shift on my feet and my knees did not stop me. That has not happened in about four years. Led a group up Catbells without flagging. Carried both bags up in one go. Small…
Eight minutes and a chair
week 28tired but good energy 3
This week: Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done.…
Protein first
week 25steady energy 13 replies
Protein first, everything else after. It is not interesting advice and it is the only advice that has changed anything. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it…
Nothing to report
week 22flat energy 53 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. I nearly did not write this week because there was nothing in it. Then I thought about…
Slept through
week 19tired energy 14 replies
This week: Slept through. Whole night, no waking. It has been so long that I lay there in the morning trying to work out what was different. Vivid dreams, every night, the…
A rough few days
week 16sore energy 34 replies
Constipation, which I have avoided writing about for six weeks out of pure squeamishness. It is the thing making me most miserable and I have said nothing about it to…
Not writing about this would be dishonest
week 15flat energy 24 replies
This week: Constipation, which I have avoided writing about for six weeks out of pure squeamishness. It is the thing making me most miserable and I have said nothing about it…
An hour on the floor
week 13grateful energy 41 reply
Got down on the floor and back up again unaided. I have not been able to do that since 2021 and I did it twice more just to check. Sat on the floor and played for an hour,…
Sunday lunch
week 9awkward energy 31 reply
A wedding. Three courses I could not face, a table of people who noticed, and a very kind waiter who boxed it up without saying a word. My mother cooks. That is how she says…
She stopped the room
week 7warm energy 14 replies
This week: Went for the practical answers and stayed for the company, which I gather is what everybody does. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at…
Day one
week 3wired energy 3
I told one person. Not my mother, not work. One person, and only because she asked me a direct question at the right moment. The pharmacist talked me through it very fast and…
First dose, done
week 1nervous energy 23 replies
I want to write this down before I forget how frightened I was, because I suspect in three months I will not believe it. Twenty minutes of standing there. Then eight seconds.…