Journal
Espe’s journal
Andalusian heat, evening walks, late dinners.
No project
week 71content energy 24 replies
Nothing happened again. I am aware that is now the fourth month running I have written that, and I have decided it is the best sentence in this journal. Steady. The strange…
Grip
week 68tired but good energy 32 replies
Evening. Walked instead of the bus all week. Not a programme. Just walking. Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that…
Quiet
week 66flat energy 33 replies
Quiet. Injection Tuesday, mild Wednesday, fine by Thursday, and then a normal weekend. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it…
Steady
week 63steady energy 33 replies
Evening. An unremarkable week. Ate, walked, worked, slept adequately. This is what most of it looks like. Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a…
Somebody new
week 62warm energy 54 replies
Somebody new tonight, terrified, exactly where I was in the spring. I said the thing that had been said to me and watched it land. Went for the practical answers and stayed…
How are you doing on a Wednesday
week 59held energy 14 replies
Evening. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole mechanism. Paired up. We text on Sunday nights, four or…
Unremarkable
week 58pleased energy 43 replies
Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The difference in a fortnight was not subtle. Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a moment, which is apparently the only…
Iron and B12
week 56relieved energy 54 replies
Iron and B12 both low. Treated. The difference in a fortnight was not subtle. A1c down. Three years of results side by side. A trend rather than a moment, which is apparently…
Sunday lunch
week 55loved energy 21 reply
Evening. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly,…
Two sessions
week 53tired but good energy 22 replies
Came back after a bad fortnight without trying to make up the lost ground, which is the thing that used to end it for me every time. Kept the two sessions that matter and…
Quiet
week 51flat energy 11 reply
Nothing to report. Writing it down anyway, on the theory that a journal made only of eventful weeks would give a false impression of the whole thing. Steady. That is the…
Back without making it up
week 49tired but good energy 12 replies
Evening. Kept the two sessions that matter and dropped the two that were vanity. Fewer, heavier, done. Grip strength has gone off and I noticed it opening a jar before I…
Paired
week 47held energy 5
Nobody has ever asked me how I was doing on a Wednesday before. She had a bad week and I had a fine one, and next month it will be the other way round. That is the whole…
A wedding
week 45warm energy 41 reply
Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly, and I say…
Slept through
week 43foggy energy 34 replies
Vivid dreams, every night, the sort you have to sit up and shake off. Two other people in circle have the same and none of us can find anything written about it. Slept…
The limits of yoghurt
week 41steady energy 23 replies
Greek yoghurt, eggs, and the limits of both. I have reached the limits of both. Spread it across the day instead of trying to do it all at teatime and everything got easier.…
My mother cooks
week 39awkward energy 13 replies
Evening. Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. My mother cooks. That is how she says it. So I eat what I can, slowly,…
What is your secret
week 37loved energy 21 reply
Sunday lunch at my grandmother's. Small plate, long afternoon, no drama, and she was happy. Late Spanish dinners with a small appetite. My mother cooks. That is how she says…
A new bin and a plan
week 37organised energy 22 replies
Evening. Batch cooked on a good day for the bad days. Six labelled boxes in the freezer and a great deal of smugness. Two lines a day in a paper diary. Date, and one thing.…
She stopped the room
week 35warm energy 24 replies
Evening. The facilitator stopped the room when four of us were talking at once and asked one person how she was actually doing. It changed the whole hour. Somebody new…